Whooooo-What can I say?
....other than HALLELUJAH!!!!
It's been a rough couple of weeks for me. I will not go into much detail, just because it would take too long to explain... but basically I've been getting migraines for the last 4 weeks or so, every day, all day...I know, blah.
That would explain while I haven't really been blogging, or emailing, or anything. Even the paparazzi would have a hard time finding me, I've been that low on the radar...So, if you've wondered, that's what's been up with me. BUT, the way things have been going last week and this weekend... I think it's safe to say that I'M BACK...I've been feeling SO much better, each day less and less pain. What a relief and blessing it is, to be migraine free!
This past month has been extremely hard for me... the pain yes, but esp. not being my happy-peppy-self for my little ones and honey... However, I've learned a lot during this small trial in my life. I've always had a hard time sharing sensitive and personal things publicly, mostly because what I feel is so strongly burning inside of me but what I lack are the right words to express how I feel... but I need to take this time to express my gratitude and appreciation.
To my sweet children,
Thank you for playing so well together and being good kids. I am amazed, even at your young ages, your ability to understand when mommy is not feeling well. Thank you Will, for your many kisses that have not only helped my head feel better but have brought a smile to my face during some of the most painful moments. Caitlin, you are such a light in my life, your smile and sweetness warm my heart and melt away my worries and troubles. And to baby girl, you are worth all the migraines in the world, I would experience them ten times over, knowing that I would get to hold and care for you and watch you grow in the end... I love you and cannot wait for you to join our family in a mere 7 weeks!
To my loving husband Justin,
There is only one thing worse than having a migraine, and that is watching someone else suffer through them... (over and over again.) I am so sorry you've had to see me go through this...but I am so grateful it's you by my side... you are the perfect little nurse! Thank you for stepping up to the plate when needed... You are the rock of our family and your dedication and love keep us growing closer together. Thank you for taking the time to teach our children... they adore you and your bedtime stories of skunks and dump trucks... :)
The prayers and blessings you have given on my behalf have lifted me far more than you'll ever realize. And if it's possible, I love you more today than I ever have, I am a better woman because I have married you...
To my 3 Angels,
Mother Terese, Sister Lindsey and Nana Carole, your willingness to serve me has left me with a greater love for each of you...esp. since your days are already full of things that acquire your attention...your constant prayers and even special trips to the temple, for doing my laundry and bringing me dinners, taking Caitlin to preschool and entertaining her for the WHOLE day... I'm humbled by your love for me. Your service will never be forgotten. I love you all so, SO much!
To Family and Friends,
Far away or those living next door and in the neighborhood... I have felt your love and
constant prayers. Thank you for your words of encouragement, emails, phone calls, and unexpected dinner drop off or plate of cookies... There are tears in my eyes and love in my heart for you all! I even feel the strength and blessings from the service of my brother-in-law Parker, who is on a mission right now! My life is richly blessed because of all of you. Thank you, Thank you!
My Grandma Adams said it best, "Serve the best you can, any moment you can! Someday you will be the recipient of that service you've given, and it will be 10 fold!" and it has!
I'm humbled and enlightened by this new perpective that has allowed me to view life in a whole new light with hope and happiness, esp. in times of trial. And extremely grateful that the migraines have eased the past few days, allowing me to enjoy my children and the beautiful spring weather.